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Why? [22 Feb 2005|12:04am]
[ mood | lonely ]

Why do I fall for the one that doesn't want me the way I want him?
Why can't he just tell me I'm the one?
Why can't I be the girl of his dreams?
Why can I have the one that will treat me right, but I want the one that treats me terrible?

I feel this way tonight. I don't have feelings like these all the time. What's wrong with me? Why can't I just stop talking to him? I don't want to want him anymore...

~Stephanie~

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So true... [17 Feb 2005|01:44am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 8 people about this game.
Darnell is the one that you love.
Brian (from work) is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Helen.
Nicole is the one who knows you very well.
Kimmy is your lucky star.
Love Fool is the song that matches with Darnell.
Barbie Girl is the song for Brian (from work).
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Mr. Lonely is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

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I used to think this... [06 Feb 2005|09:08pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

i hate myself for falling you soo fast...

i hate myself bc i cant stop thinking about you

i hate myself because all i want is to be with you

i hate myself bc all i want is to be your girl..

i hate myself because

in
the
end


you

dont

want

me


and now im...

h e a r t b r o k e n


but in the end i hate you....

bc
you
l e a d
me
on......


but the sad thing is...

i would take you back in a .*.*.SecOnD.*.*.

bc you smell good....
your the perfect guy to me
and

i cant have you...



thats why i have to let you go...bc its killing me inside...


all i wanted this weekend was to see you...
and look into your beautiful eyes...
and sleep in your arms
bc we were a pefect fit

but now im left alone...

wondering what I DID WRONG


god i want you...

but i still hate myself...

bc i want you to look into my eyes and want the same thing as me...
and i dont think that will ever happen...
i dont think im good enough for you...

i dont regret anything between us


god i just want to see you...
i want you to call again...
and say that you want to stop by and see me for a second...
just bc you are home...





this sucks


im always going to be alone

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Some people are so blind... [19 Jan 2005|10:40pm]
[ mood | devious ]

I haven't updated in like a year, so I figured I will now.

Bad car accident today, I'm sore all over.
I think I lost a few friendships too. I guess everyone gets what's coming to them right? I didn't think I would be punished this much, but now that I am, it came up and hit me in the ass. I think I'll be in debt the rest of my life.

This is probably the worst year of my high school experience and it's only half over. It's also supposed to be the best year because I'm a senior, or so I thought...

I honestly don't feel like writing anymore. Sorry guys.



He treats me like his whore. All I want to be is his friend. I cry inside and out and he doesn't even know. No one does.



~Stephanie~

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Marisa, [04 Sep 2004|06:18pm]
Im sorry Marisa...please just talk to me.

Is it me? Are you mad at me? Tell me the truth.

~Stephanie~

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blah [20 Aug 2004|01:01am]
[ mood | anxious ]

The drama crowd is changing...and it's not for the good either.

~Stephanie~

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Dear Bryan, [19 Aug 2004|12:43am]
[ mood | getting sick from Rikki ]

I am upset.

Why won't you talk to me?

Stephanie

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Been readin all day. [11 Aug 2004|05:08pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Sittin here all by myself just tryin to think of somethin to do...

I miss my boo.

I miss my girlfriends actually (Helen, Nicole, Marisa, Gary...j/k)

I just ate KFC but my mom is home so I can't get rid of it therefore I can't eat anything in 2 days.

Someone call me, Helen come home!

~Stephanie~

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WE DID IT! [07 Aug 2004|02:34am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Marisa and I have just finished my journal. It is B-E-A-UTIFUL!!! Go on...look at it...you know you love it too!

~Stephanie~

Thank you Marisa! You know you want him now...

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I wanna be his girl [03 Aug 2004|02:17am]
[ mood | still horny ]

I would fuck the shit out of Eminem.

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But nobody knew how much she blamed herself... [03 Aug 2004|01:44am]
[ mood | horny ]

It's all for you,

I will be skinny for you.



You drive me wild...



I hate you so much it makes me sick. Get it? Haha.

~Stephanie~

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Yah!!! [31 Jul 2004|01:59am]
[ mood | awake ]

I dyed my hair!

It's RED!!!

~Stephanie~

P.S. Took 2 energy pills and I'm so awake but no one is online...damnit.

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Look Damnit!!!! [18 Jul 2004|08:44pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Hey! I made a layout for Stephanie and it's awesome!!!!!

 

 

So, look @ it..... :D

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I didn't like this one very much. [17 Jul 2004|11:48am]
[ mood | sick ]

The \\
Last Cigarette:like 2 minutes ago
Last Alcoholic Drink:Mike Hard Lemonade last Tuesday
Last Car Ride:Helen last night
Last Kiss:Rob
Last Good Cry:Aunt Dar's 40th B-day party and on the phone with Marisa
Last Library Book:oh god I have no idea
Last book bought:Kurt Cobain
Last Book Read:I don't remember that either
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:Spider Man 2
Last Movie Rented:Cruel Intentions
Last Cuss Word Uttered:"Shit I'm dying"
Last Beverage Drank:Soda
Last Food Consumed:piece of chicken
Last Crush:Michael
Last Phone Call:Marisa
Last TV Show Watched:Comedy Central presents George Carlin
Last Time Showered:like an hour ago
Last Shoes Worn:Helens black ones
Last CD Played:Britney Spears
Last Item Bought:Arbys for mom
Last Download:Pablo Francisco on the Tonight Show
Last Annoyance:my allergies
Last Disappointment:Gary
Last Soda Drank:Big K Cola
Last Thing Written:Hotel prices in the library with my pink fuzzy pen
Last Key Used:car key
Last Words Spoken:"She's 20 and she just graduated?"
Last Sleep:umm last night
Last Ice Cream Eaten:like a few days ago umm those cone things
Last Chair Sat In:the one I'm sitting in now
Last Webpage Visited:www.dictionary.com

Create a survey!

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[07 Jul 2004|11:55am]
[ mood | hungry ]

First..get a pen and paper.
When you actually choose names, make sure
it's people you actually know and go with your first
instinct.

Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read
ahead or you'll ruin it!

1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a column.


2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.


3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex.

NO LOOKING AHEAD...OR IT WON"T TURN
OUT
RIGHT!

4. Write anyone's name (like friends or family....) in the 4th, 5th, and 6th spots.

5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11.

GO WITH YOUR INSTINCT PEOPLE!!!!

6. Finally, make a wish.--because you know its gonna come true mwahaha. not?





1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people about this game.

8

2. The person in space 3 is the one that you like.

Gary...I don't think so...?

3. The person in 7 is one you love but can't work out.

Michael...love? prolly not

4. You care most about the person you put in 4.

Helen. True.

5. The person you name in number 5 is the one who knows you very well.

Kathy. No.

6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star.

Marisa...yes indeed

7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3.

All You Need Is Love...hmmm

8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7

Red Neck Woman...hahaha Michael

9. The tenth space is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.

Pimp Like me...hahaha I'm a P.I.M.P.

10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life

Love Fool...yeah I guess that's me...


Sorry I didn't know how to do that link thing like Bryan.



~Stephanie~

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this was fun [07 Jul 2004|12:50am]
</td>
What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?:man
..rain?:beautiful
..tornado?:scary
..summer love?:aww
..Jon?:morgan...i miss him
..Mike?:loschovio
..Shea?:what
..banana?:penis
..dizzy?:fun
..Laura?:bitch at my work
..Juan?:don
..car?:backseat
..white?:gary
..peppermint?:christmas
..New Found Glory?:who
..placebo?:huh
..orange juice?:vodka
..candid camera?:smile
..sister?:idiot
..brother?:eh
..hate?:dont hate...
..school?:gay
..President?:bush?
..football?:boys
..rap?:loud...but good
..pop?:fun
..rock?:weird
..punk?:leslie
..sex?:love it
..death?:afraid of it
..baby?:i want one
..duuude?:sammy jo...from nemo
..the end?:when will it

The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay. brought to you by BZOINK!

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So kiss me hard, cause this will be the last time that I let you. [03 Jul 2004|01:27am]
[ mood | regretful ]

I'll never be the character I want to be.
I'll never be good enough to get the part.
Why can't I be beautiful and skinny?
Why can't I just be perfect, it would just make life so much easier...

I just want to be what they want me to be.



I'll never be good enough...

~Stephanie~

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hmmmm [14 Jun 2004|02:12am]
Rob,

I care...

~Stephanie~

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[12 Jun 2004|12:25am]
[ mood | rejected ]

I shall forever be punished for my fuck-ups...

I suffer now, and I deserve it too.

Someone shoot me.



"So kiss me hard, cause this will be the last time that I'll let you"

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Days of lonliness... [26 May 2004|04:05pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothin at all
if it ain't you baby
if I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
but everything means nothin
if I ain't got you

Hand me the world on a silver platter...

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